I will be leaving for vacation in 2 days for about a week, so my boyfriend gave me my anniversary present early.  Gotta love him for acknowledging my love for photography and polaroids.  I’ve been wanting this polaroid camera for so long for its retro look and and colorful polaroids, but I’ve always been hesitant in purchasing one because of the pricey film.  I’ve put away that idea of getting one, until my boyfriend surprised me with an Instax Mini 7s!!  He also got me 30 instant films, 10 of which are Hello Kitty themed!  -tears of joy- *u*

It’s so white and sleek, plus it produces such cute wallet-size polaroids!  Once I took my first picture, I could not stop looking at it!  Not only does it produce pretty colors, but the image quality itself is superb judging by the fact that it is developed from a polaroid camera.

Thank you Honey ♥!  I think I will have lots of fun with this camera!  I can’t wait to take more pictures and make a garland out of them on my bedroom wall!

And yes, we have been together for 3 years already now and counting. :) Love you!

I get mood swings easily, especially when it’s regarding my boyfriend.  I get upset when he comes home late, when he falls asleep on the phone, or when he doesn’t reply to my messages for a long period of time.  I cry when I don’t get to see him often, when he says something that I don’t like, or when he doesn’t pay enough attention to me.  

(Why do I sound like such an overly attached girlfriend??  ><)

But I think I just love him too much.  I wish that he could come home early just so that I know he is safe.  I wish that he would just get some rest instead of struggling to stay awake on the phone.  I wish that he would appreciate all the messages I am sending him, because 90% of it is trying to make him smile.  I wish that I get to see him everyday, so I can offer him all the hugs and kisses he always asked for.  I wish that he would try not to say something that would offend me (unintentionally sometimes), because I wouldn’t want to see him upset over my mood swings.  And I wish that he would pay more attention to me, because he is the only one in my heart.

And every time something like this happens, he is always still my comfort zone.  He would incessantly ask me “what’s wrong” while hugging me, patting my back, and holding my hand despite no response.  I would always end up crying on his shoulder with all my tears and snot on his shirt.  But he wouldn’t care.  He would still kiss me despite how horrendously I looked.  I am so grateful that he doesn’t walk away during the times when I need him most.  And he never leaves until he sees me smile again.

I am so so thankful for him. ♥

when I feel like life is spiraling out of control.  Clearly, I am hurt.  Clearly, I felt betrayed.  For whatever reason that might be, I shall not disclose that information.  Lets just say that I was on the verge of throwing away everything and just giving up on my almost 3-year relationship.  But then, this is what my boyfriend said in spite of what happened:

Honey, I really do care about you. You are the only person that I care about. Ever since we were together, it has been the happiest years of my life.  You are the one person I cannot live without. When we were talking yesterday, I closed my eyes and imagined what will happen if you were to leave me. I immediately just went to tears. My life without you becomes a mess.  The imaginative pain I felt made me not want to live anymore.  Because of you, I have a reason to hope for in the future. Because of you, I am working hard in school so we can enjoy a happy life together. Finally, because of you, my life is complete.

I don’t think I’ve ever been so moved.  Ever. ♥

And now, I shall leave you all with my new favorite song:

Thelma Aoyama - Zutto

Lyrics/translation:

Always Always
Always Always

I always thought that happiness didn’t suit me.
But I met you by chance and everything changed.
Soulmate. (fated person)

The night I troubled you selfishly
But I always admitted my defeat
No matter what time I had a smiling face

But I am always by your side
I want to smile a lot
Always Always
Because I love you
And I am truly happy
Always Always
Always Always

Him: Regarding what you said: because maybe one day you might realize that I’m not for you or I get on your nerves or we just aren’t right for each other… it has been two and a half years and my love burns for you just as strong as day 1, so in other words, I still LOVE YOU LOTS!  If you got on my nerves, I would have left you a long time ago if I didn’t like you or if I wanted to just leave because of your imperfections but NOPE, I stayed, because I want to fight for our relationship.  I want to love my imperfect person perfectly ♥ It will take more than you getting on my nerves to drive me away baby ;]  I hope this made it clear on my feelings for you honey ;] If not, I have my whole life to prove to you. ♥